There is a crisis there is not a crisis. I yell at somebody that's the crisis showing through. But when i consider my options i realize the best thing is not to think about it unless i have to. This is called Doublethink, or "normalcy". With it i can survive anything, even Dubya's fascist state.

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The architect as paradigm artist-- because it's closest in form to a science-- this means stale notions framed with the utmost clarity, so you wonder why it happened at all-- and that feeling, repeated, becomes the expected response to any art...

To admit that you no longer love what you once loved is hard, because that means admitting part of you has died. It implies that eventually, there will be no one to love what you used to love, that you will finally vanish from the earth (not merely from your life); and that thought is not pleasant to a person who defines self by external riteria: like the Sun King who tried to forbid anyone mentioning the mortality of monarchs in his presence. In order to grow, you must accept your death, for you are not a thing but a nexus of processes, some of which metamorphosize into others, some going out, some coming into existence. The more you understand this, as form-genesis or as real-time, the less impeded by inner blockings will be your growth. And that means discarding much, as well as acquiring much-- in order to create a past for yourself, and a future, out of the vortex of the present where nothing can abide.
Death is a thought of adolescence, of the first dying-over...And the uman race, which even now consists mainly of children and teenagers, has always been obsesed ith that thought, in spite of words from the few whose minds continued past that point.
But now our dreams have become our reality--.

"January 29, 2004

To whom it may concern:

During our 9 week unit on hate, we are learning about the Holocaustand
how
prejudice and power in the wrong hands can be catastrophic. We have a
project that we would like your help on.Northridge Middle School is a
small
rural school located in central Ohio. Our student body consists of
about
400 students who are mostly Christian with very little cultural
diversity.
We will be traveling to Washington D.C. in May and will be experiencing
all
the sights of our wonderful capital. One of our stops will be at the
Holocaust Museum. By that time, we will have completed a comprehensive
unit
about the Holocaust. Even though we know that 6,000,000 Jews were
murdered
in the Holocaust, it is hard to fathom such a huge number. As part of
our
research, we came across a class project conducted by a middle school
in
Whitwell, TN. We were inspired by their efforts to collect paper-clips
as
symbols of those who lost their lives during that terrible time. We
have
decided to start a paper-clip drive of our own. Our ultimate goal is to
collect 6,000,000 paper-clips to represent 6,000,000 victims of the
Holocaust. We are asking for paper-clip donations for a particular
reason.
During World War II, Norwegians wore paper-clips on their clothes to
show their opposition to Nazism and anti-Semitism. Once our project is
completed, our class intends to use the paper-clips to build a
sculpture
with the help of our talented art teacher. This project will be
displayed
in our school. Our sculpture will stand as a lasting reminder of those
who
gave so much. Our project will continue until March 5, 2004. At this
time,
we will decide if the project will need to be extended. It is not
important
to us how many paper-clips each person wants to send. We'll leave that
decision up to you. The paper-clips should be sent to:

Northridge Middle School
Holocaust Project
ATTN: T. Bowman/A. Thompson
6066 Johnstown-Utica Rd.
Johnstown, OH 43031

From tracking the states from which the paper-clips were sent to
counting
and organizing the load, everyone in our class will have a hand in
making
this project a success. Thank you in advance for sending us
paper-clips!
Sincerely,

Ms. Bowman's 8th grade English Class"

   "An Old Pagan Talks About Love"

dazzling, and
if you bury
the WORLD, and deep/
The rage of
It thousand I
have a A
whole calls into
the gravity wars nacreous
Mad goblin, meteorogram
words, indigo shade
we have to train and continents,
in
the
silence of
the far away, in front
his desire to
become a result of
pyrotechnicians nibbled him as

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