(
via / me )
Wasp ruins.
Tired of being talked to, a kind of hydrophobia.
Refusal.
"Everyone
Everyone has written beautifully
of things that haunt the decade,
of reasons for absconding
with a history of pain,
of the dull shackled brain,
and everyone’s come up a glorious
idiot—still blind to the fire
that licks and laps our ankles.
Myself included: I’ve sunned my soul
in the flames, as they rose,
expecting any day
to hear the gospel of
a technologic fix, an end
to want, to death, to meaning;
hoisted up by my own amphetamines,
entrusted with the whole sick crew,
and the death of an author,
and the death of the new…
Some spirit raced across the plain
that stretches from Earth to Heaven,
that stretches back
a thousand years,
to deep engines of
our primordial guilt—
and it secreted through the centuries
a word or two, once written,
depositing its frank hieratic script
on the doorstep,
where we stare.
And I read the news
which promised it was true,
but in between the lines I caught
the clearest conversation,
which blew my mind out
like a childhood candle,
saying: 'I am the century’s decay,
the engine of fertility,
and the end is so forever near,
why love—why linger
anywhere at all?'
And the answer all around
hummed, invisibly,
ensconced in sheer air:
'Illusions now,
and illusions then,
sad history of becoming;
you cannot make the void tremble,
but only speak one word,
and it will be
an unexplainable thing.' "
--Julia Ostrowski in The Hinternet
Olympus Em-1 (full spectrum).