There's suppressed books, like the L Ron exposé, which
Scientologists went everywhere to buy & destroy; then
there's ignored books, like The Sacred Mushroom and
the Cross, that so dumbfounded the world of Biblical
scholarship that Allegro immediately became an "unperson"
--& is remembered today only by the 'Shroom Community...
I would have liked to believe that the name "Jesus" was
a code word for Amanita, but that business of Sumerian
puns was all too Saussure-like & just the way crackpot
reasoning proceeds, for me. But i think it's still a mind-
blowing book, if only because its author was who he
was (no wild-eyed hippie, he) to write it.

Incense clocks.

Free jazz is the only kind of music that when i play it
in the store, i invariably get asked to turn it off. We got
in some Albert Ayler the other day. I still haven't heard
all of it. I myself couldn't understand "A Love Supreme"
the first time i heard it. But it kept nagging at me
that there was something there i'd missed. Finally
one day i was listening to it, not really paying
attention--& i got it! (But i still don't know how
exactly to describe its meaning...) Sort of like
"averted vision" in astronomy--you look off to
the side of the object in the telescope, because
the peripheral areas are more sensitive to
faint light than the cornea. They are playing at
the edge of the music. Not trying to get it
directly. And what is evoked by your groping into
the sound, is the true music of this.

   "Fair and Balanced"

Dreaming, in the Althusserian night,
That all our work will oneday 'scape debunking.
Driving, like a raid-marooned sad Viking
Siren from somewhere; other hands at hunt.
Sodium pink & mercury blue dispute
Pavements of the empire-builders' principle
Still i find this brillig blindness beautiful
To cross striped shadows wearing fingerprints

Envenomed darkness bring me French velvet
Acolytes... Fiesta red rodents pitch
Unopening windows, logarithmic squelch
Dreaming through the creaking of the pivot
A Volapük threnody, or part of it.

08 20 03

"I have a dream" in Lojban.

Listening to: Sven Vath.

Shadow of the Dolls ecards.
[Not anymore, but still.]