Mind is the outermost layer of skin, the most
sensitive & easily marked; it is only because we have
no wider senses that we cannot determine its extent
or limits.

I'm not here because i'm here, i'm here because i'm not
here.

"Memorized speech is perhaps the least dramatic thing
that can happen on the stage." --Jack Smith

"It is rather strange because no painter thinks while
painting about what his painting would look like on
a color slide." --Nam June Paik

"As Leakey also said, the reason painting suddenly
appeared about 20,000 years ago was not because
people suddenly became smart, but because, before
there were agricultural communities, everybody moved
2000 miles every year." --ibid

An integrated person is a working democracy.

When i make a narrative out of my experiences, my
aesthetic sense is a strong wind i must tack against
to steer toward the truth. I get blown off course.
Sometimes i end up headed in the opposite direction.

"The amateur is very rare in French literature--as rare
as he is common in our own." --Lytton Strachey, 1912

TV: "We don't know what the part, corresponding to
the left hemisphere's speech centers, does on the right."
me: "the silence." --How long till we learn the use of
silence?

Every artist is a pirate satellite, a guerilla broadcaster.
Like that lone Japanese, we haven't heard that the
war is over. We think it's longing when it is our
survival.

"For ours is a most fictile world; and man is the most
fingent plastic of creatures." --Carlyle

I struggle between voice and speech. If i were only to
write when i feel articulate, that would not be the whole
truth.

You can live without meaning, without seeking meaning;
and no metaphysical retribution ensues. Our alienation
isn't teleological. It's simple as wearing shoes. When i
came back to Dallas i was able to smell the pollution.
Now i don't. Absence of meaning is like that. You
never find it by trying to reason it out because meaning
transcends rationality. How else can i say this? And
yet the meaning i have found from leaving is not the meaning
i must make here. What i can keep is the knowledge that
meaning exists. I won't find a recipe for it. But i might acquire
a nose for it.
   --By meaning, i don't mean faith. Faith
is kind of like the knowledge that meaning is possible, the
knowledge that makes meaning possible, but it's a wholly
visceral knowledge; swimming which is so natural yet not
a part of our genetic heritage--we develop our doubt and
faith in tandem (always & everyone!)--while meaning is what
holds the entire network of relationships together. Harmony.